bogged blogger

Sometimes the blogger is just more boggy than bloggy, and sadly - or maybe more accurately - just a function of the normality of the changeability of life - that has been the case for the past week or so.

Where did the boggy come from? Oh, let's see - I suspect part of it can be laid at the feet of the holiday season and the range of emotions it conjures up - from joy and gratitude and awe to poignant memories and sadness and loneliness - lonely for those I loved who are no longer living, loneliness for that someone I'd like to love who hasn't shown up just yet.

And there's the existential angst thing that is never far away, that seems to grow a bit more prominent during cold, stay indoors, wind down the year kind of days.

And there's the overwhelm that sometimes shows up when there are lots of new things on the agenda - like learning some of the pertinent points of blogging and AdSense and Google partners, of wandering helpless through the maze of Medicaid filing as part of a psychology practice, of meeting new folks while out and about more than usual for holiday gatherings.

So today was a wind-down, be quiet sort of day, with a bit of catching up with myself, with a larger bit of reality check with a friend, with a nicer, softer spot to land this evening.

Hope, always, honestly, truly does - spring eternal. Sometimes I just have to actually open the window to let it in.